Be able to numb my emotions and ignore the outside world. I want to be able to say “I’m done” and actually mean it for once, actually be able to stick with not letting anyone in and just keeping to myself. Sometimes I wish I couldn’t care at all, since all I end up with is hurt when I care too much.
When? How? What do I have to do to get to the point where everything is “okay”? I’m tired of going through everyday waiting for something to change and hoping maybe something good will happen for once, only to be disappointed and left with the broken hope that maybe tomorrow will be the day. It doesn’t help when people tell me “it’ll be okay” because it still hurts not knowing when it’ll actually happen.
